30 days of music – Day 16: Name a song you used to love but now you hate
First off, my apologies. I took a little break over the weekend. But I’m back. 🙂
A song I used to love but now I hate…. hmmmm…. maybe it isn’t a song. Maybe it’s a whole band? I used to love Creed, when they came out. The radio ruined them for me. If I hear “Arms Wide Open” again, I’m liable to poke my ears out.
Oooohhhhh…. this is a good one. “Now and Forever” by Richard Marx. Many many many moons ago, there was a boy, and I liked him. A lot. I loved him, although now I know I wasn’t “in love” with him, thankfully. He broke my heart into a million jagged pieces. That was our song. And now, when I hear it, I want to hurt small animals.
There’s only one other song: Brown Eyed Girl by Van Morrison. I never really loved this song. I guess… I liked it though. And then my husband tells me that the girl before me: this was their song. Yeah. Not awesome. So, now, every time I hear it, I am reminded of that other skank.
I’ve got jealousy issues. I know. As a matter of fact, I have a hard time following in anyone’s shadow. For example. because that was “their song”, I hate it. If I find out that she called him some pet name, I won’t call him that. I just want to be unique and extraordinary. I don’t want any part of me to remind him of someone else. Certainly, not because I think she’s better. As a matter of fact, it’s just the opposite. It’s because I know that I am better.
*Side note: we’ve already established that I am probably too conceited for my own good. Don’t pretend to be surprised now. 😉
I am singular, and fantastic. This much, I know. That being said, I don’t want to mesh into the other half of some girl’s existence in my man’s life. I want to know that I stand alone in his eyes; in his heart. I want to know that I make his life special because I am there. Not because I follow the path that woman has already laid.
I have remind myself that I am already standing alone in his life, because I love him as I do. But, when I hear some of those songs, I have to fight that jealous streak.